` hmm i hope to be a counsellor.
wish to help pple . hope they will be happy =)

BUT BUT ..

i wont forget my wish ..which is to be an air stewardess . =)))

..-::"*LemoN*"::-..


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finally is time for me to rest. was tired both mentally and physically. -.-"
once a week is enough to wear me out. =scarred externally too. =((( ugly ~!!!

all strangers who tried to talk to me are liars . yyyeeeeeewwww `!! you'll have long nose after a few weeks . =x
so i learn not to believe unless i witness it myself with my two evil eyes.

if it's so difficult for you to keep your promise, then dont promise. hmms, before you make any empty promises, think 1st; is it worth it to keep or make the promise to the one. =)

nowadays it has been easier for me to fall asleep. the moment i go to bed, i am in my lala-land. =D last month was quite difficult for me to fall asleep. hmms what is the reason `? o.O?

..-::"*LemoN*"::-..


`hmms nowadays are busy with my work. didnt spend time with you . guilty=x
hope you're not angry . =\ i am not very happy too. =( but feelin` better le.
also hope that you're feelin` better le. =)
since you didnt want it that way, so i did it another way. =x there wont be 2nd time le.

how long since i last met you ? quite long le bahx. cant recall how you look like =/
take care alright ?`

`i*mi**ss*y*ou '

..-::"*LemoN*"::-..


he asked :" what happen to you when i am not by your side already?"
she replied :" dont rubbish. you will live long ok, promise ?"
he said :" okay, i promised you .."

when i heard this conversation 2 yrs ago, i was so envy and happy . they're just sweet husband and wife.
but now, when i think back, it's sad. =( cos' he left her.

i am emotional. i'll be fine after sometime.

thanx everyone who acc me just now . thank you`

..-::"*LemoN*"::-..


i dont think i am havin` though i am actually havin`.
why is you not him ` ?
maybe he will have the same thinkin` too; why is you not her ?
i seem soo happy in front of everyone yea `? and only one can see through me. =(
seems like everthing happened just too fast for me to accept the fact that they might leave me alone out there.
everytime is so coincidence. what can i do ?? blame myself.
if i can choose again, i dont think i'll choose it this way.
my life is so chaotic. 1st, i lost him, 2nd was another him and now the 3rd him.

i hate human with an evil heart. and you know who you are, you this farkin` cb bastard ! i cursed you ~!!
everything that happened in this month make me feel that all the people in this farkin` world cannot be trusted .
i need a break. soo tired of all these `.
i'll learn to accept. it is the time i need.

it's soo unfair. the guys always promise that they will stay by their lurve ones' sides but end up breakin` the promiseS.
he promised her:" i'll stay by ur side forever and never leave you alone."
and after that, he left her and go to the Heaven. wtf`!! why so ungentleman ! you promised to stay by her side and now you leave her alone in this earth livin` aimlessly. you promised !! but why break it ??
if that is the case, dont ever promise anything . never !!

I REALLY HATE ALL PROMISES !! DONT PROMISE ME ANYTHING ! NEVER !!





The Secrets of my Life . have a stupid thinkin` in my mind for years. the diaries can be only be read by my lurve one after i kick the bucket.

` after 3 days of work.. leave the last few weeks of vacation for work. tired `!
if ever wonder why i did not quit after 1 year of working at the same place, the reason is; they treat me too good. =D thanx `! hmms.

my everyday life will be workin`, supper and slp.

someone thinks that he is a boss . too bad, a boss without balls . stop commanding alright `? youre not the one i'll obey . you're nothing !` there is a limit to my patience . _l_

occupy myself, i wont think soo much. it's always better to be busy. i hate to be alone sometimes.
some people just walk out of my life without me realisin` it.
feel like pickin` up the habit again `.

..-::"*LemoN*"::-..


i inherited my dad's genes . =) advantage `!! great great weeee hoooo `~

to .`
bon voyage `! seems to say these words to alotx of my frends durin` this holidays.
take good care alright ? hmms rmb our meet up after you're back from taiwan yea` ? i'll miss you much much .

..-::"*LemoN*"::-..




THANX YOU VERY MUCH `!


..-::"*LemoN*"::-..


i am tired but i cant fall asleep.
treasure your lurve ones because once you lose them, they will never be back again`. NEVER !
maybe one will only learn after they lose.
but why does one only learn when they lose their lurve one ? what is the farkin` reason ??
i thought i will be fine but somehow i am not`. I AM NOT !
i wont be able to hide my feeling` i do not have the ability to hide. somehow accept it`

<--*d.`*a.*`s--

..-::"*LemoN*"::-..


`05 APRIL 2006

the moment i reached home .. .. ..
she presented such a cheerful front that i didnt know what exactly happened.
who wont be sad that her father passed away ? i am sad that i do not know how to cheer my mum up. it hurts somehow when i see her behavin` that way.
=( T.T

`04 APRIL 2006

after my FEVER `finally i am able to upload all photos.


big turtle inside the pond.








..-::"*LemoN*"::-..



the sky `captured around 3am .

see` i am soo innocent and good girl yea` ? seems good to bully right ? that's why they dote me.


i am the black sheep of PCSS. hees bad girl bad girl `! xp
since i am the sheep and i will support the "Yang" yea` ? he look soo much like Joe. `dont keep askin` me why i did not go back to PCSS alright `? pissed off !

and you `!! dont keep complaining alright ? they dote on me because i am a very extremely good girl . (BHB though -.-) they dote them because they are more hardworking than you ~ soo please dont compare `!!

to `
after a slp is always good. =) thanx for callin` me up and asked . i am fine lahx . believe me !` you take care too yea` ?

m*is*s*ingyo*u

..-::"*LemoN*"::-..


` WRONG ! damn WRONG !~

i am exhausted. somehow it's not the way i want it to be.
i wish the day for me going to "Johnny 2 thumbs up" will never arrive.
if it does arrive, yes , changes in me.`

what happened ? used to be that way, but ..
i am acceptin` anyway. =(

dont say HI to me when you know you're going to say GOODBYE.
dont PROMISE if you know you will BREAK it.

i do not believe any forever or everlasting unless i feel it and experience it myself.
i will still treasure what i have now; my boyfriend and friends .


..-::"*LemoN*"::-..


feeling quite uptight now. x(

din get to eat SEOUL GARDEN but had Cafe Cartel for my dinner today. hmms i still enjoyed it anyway.

to `-. *oie
thanx everything. no $$ to use tell me okay `? i'll give you but there will be conditions . haa . bleahx =p take care of yourself.

hmms` how i wish i do not need to work and money will just appear under my fat pillow. i want to enjoy. hmms ` !


..-::"*LemoN*"::-..