i dont think i am havin` though i am actually havin`.
why is you not him ` ?
maybe he will have the same thinkin` too; why is you not her ?
i seem soo happy in front of everyone yea `? and only one can see through me. =(
seems like everthing happened just too fast for me to accept the fact that they might leave me alone out there.
everytime is so coincidence. what can i do ?? blame myself.
if i can choose again, i dont think i'll choose it this way.
my life is so chaotic. 1st, i lost him, 2nd was another him and now the 3rd him.

i hate human with an evil heart. and you know who you are, you this farkin` cb bastard ! i cursed you ~!!
everything that happened in this month make me feel that all the people in this farkin` world cannot be trusted .
i need a break. soo tired of all these `.
i'll learn to accept. it is the time i need.

it's soo unfair. the guys always promise that they will stay by their lurve ones' sides but end up breakin` the promiseS.
he promised her:" i'll stay by ur side forever and never leave you alone."
and after that, he left her and go to the Heaven. wtf`!! why so ungentleman ! you promised to stay by her side and now you leave her alone in this earth livin` aimlessly. you promised !! but why break it ??
if that is the case, dont ever promise anything . never !!

I REALLY HATE ALL PROMISES !! DONT PROMISE ME ANYTHING ! NEVER !!